Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Is exhaustion mental?

I think in some cases, it is only your mind telling you that your tired, because all you want to do is lay down and sleep. But in other cases, there are times when your body can only handle so much. But when do you know your limits? I know that as a student athlete, we are forced to push ourselves and push ourselves, and there is stopping. Which makes me wonder how long I can actually go. The time that I do have to rest, I take advantage of. Like the time I have in between classes, or when my day is over, I love to just sit on my couch and rest my brain. Sometimes I find it hard to lay down and clear my head of everything that is going on and everything that I have to do in my life. Which I think can also make a person feel exhausted. I feel like everyday I can go and go and go, but I have to have a cut off time, when I am able to rest. Like take the whole day to get all of my work out of the way, then that way when I get home, I have nothing to do. We live in a society where our minds are constantly going and going, society teaches us to think all of the time. To think about what we are going to wear, or how much money we have, or what bills we have to pay...which reminds me that tomorrow is the first so I have to remember to pay those... but see, we are in a constant movement with our brain. So on top of that, keeping my body in the shape it needs to be in, and trying to maintain an above average gpa, it can feel exhausting. But I learned thatif i tell myself that I'm exhausted, my body might listen. So I have to balance it out. Use good judgement and rest when I'm supposed to, and I will never fall. My old teammate from UCLA used to say this phrase all the time, and Ive never forgotten it... "They don't understand how I bend but don't break" (Noey!). There is so much truth in that statement. By bending, your limits are tested, but you remain so strong that you never ever break.

Yesterday seemed so tiring.

MONDAY
11-1150 class
130-2 Shooting
2 - 3 Open Gym
330 - 5 Conditioning
5 - 7 Stay at school and get this paper done that was due the next day.
Was home by 8, but i was reminded that I hd an exam in Natural Disasters, and I couldnt slee until I knew the information that was going to be on that test. And by this time I'm fighting to keep my eyes open. So from about 830 - 1030 I studied for this test... Unfortunately I almost felt like my brain had no power because I was so tired, So i just prayed that I could remember what I studied.
By 11 I was falling asleep watching Sex n the city the movie, which is way too long and could put anyone to sleep.

TUESDAY
8am wake up call, and had a beautiful breakfast
930 Im in class and the teacher clearly doesn't show up within 15 minutes, which pissed me off because that's clearly cutting into mysleeping time. So the class is allowed to leave if the teacher isnt there within 15 minutes. Now I am mentally preparing for this dang test I have at 11am.
11am
is test time, OH JOY! Gotta love it when they use the multiple choice technique to test your knowledge. I really think i did good, but whenever i say that i do bad, so pretend i didnt say that! We'll see how it went.
12-1
much needed Nap... felt like i slept for a day, it was lovely.
2-3
Individuals, let's just say it is clear that practice is upon us! Things are lookin up on the floor, my shots are fallin, hehe. might i remind you to buy those tickets! Thanks for the support!
330 - 6 Studying...
Its going to be a long week of getting work done. Still trying to recover from the weekend.

Well, it was good keeping everyone posted on my life... now i gotta get back to it. Ha...
Be blessed my people, much love
Jay

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