So friday night was our 1st day of pratice, officially. Man its exciting to get back into the swing of things. New coaches, new team, we're just ready to go. However, after that 1st practice, its clear we still have a lot of things to put in but we'll be good... We practiced from 5-8pm! Even my coach was tired... she was explaining a drill and actually stopped mid-sentence and said, "wooooo im gonna sleep good tonight." Really lightened the mood... But trust after getting home at like 830, i was knocked by 10. Especially considering we had practice the next morning at 10am.
Saturday:
Practice 10am - 1pm
pssshhh... man we went hard this morning real talk! It was sort of a wake up call. She pushed us pretty hard but we're all used to it. At least the returners... but the freshman did very well. No complaints there...its great to be young.
Well after practice I went home a relaxed for a little while... then went to see my boys play at southwestern college. Ive known dbick and courtneysince forever so i had to show some love...unfortunately there was some unneccessary drama so I was forced to leave early...
Then went to see the movie W., which i suggest everyone go see... it seemed long but it was very informative and im happy we went.
Sunday:
930am-noon
Giving bak to the community! Me and my teammates helped build a playground in el cajon. it was so fun,
Monday, October 20, 2008
Thursday, October 16, 2008
October 15th
I could NOT sleep last night!! I think I woke up around 3 from a bad dream, and didnt fall back asleep until 530. I hate when that heppens. Anyway, we had like a pre-1st practice today, where we kind of introduced what real practice is going to be like to the freshies. We were going a little bit fast though, it would suck to be a freshman but they got things down fairly easy, we've all been freshman once. So we went today for 2 hours, and official practice starts tomorrow, 3hours from 5 to 8 pm. We have been anticipating this for a long time. After running on the turf since april, I think we are all really hungry to start the actual season. So that's that. We'll see what tomorrow brings. Especially considering that my body is ALREADY sore!! O goodness, it'll pass.
On another note, me and my sboogie, better known as my love, have climbed over a hill. And let me tell you the grass is greener on the other side. You know when your really down for a long period of time, and one morning you wake up and everything seems to be right. The sun is shining and you feel like a brand new person. well that's kind of how I feel with him and our relationship. Being that it is fairly new, i knew a bump in the road was going to come along sooner than later. And being brutally honest here, I was in no place to let him go, but when things get hard in relationships, I give up because I do not have time to deal with the emotions that come along with it. But before I made a mistake and walked away, I stopped and turned around. And for the 1st time ever, I told myself I would be a damn fool to sit here and lose this man. The battle in my head came because usually its the man walking away, and im saying to him, you're a fool for letting me go. Something in my heart told me that is I left, I would never find anything better. That is a strong thing to feel. But at that moment, i knew i was in love. I became willing to sacrifice my own pride, just to keep that man by my side. I know the decision I made was smart, because unlike my past relationships, he doesnt bring hardships or negativity to my life. He's kinda like that extra kick when I feel like sitting down. What made all of my past relationships so hard was the constant negativity. And in my profession, I need a man who can love me even when I don't have time, even when I have bigger goals. At the end of the day, we do nothing but help better eachother. Now this isnt one sided people, I kick him in the you know what too when I catch him slipping. And that's why we call eachother the perfect team. Think about what a perfect teammate would be, and that is what we are to eachother. And we don't have to be all mushy and lovey dovey for us to know that, it is just something we share and cherish.
I grew up in a household with 2 parents. I watched them fight, I watched them struggle, and I am a 1st hand witness of the happiness they share. Even Stef brought it up when he was helping us move... If my parents don't agree on something, they accept what ever the other one has to say, and accepts them for them. My dad may do something that gets on my moms nerves, but she doesn't let it escalate into a problem, she accepts the fact that my dad is who is and part of loving him is accepting ALL of him. Being able to see the ups and downs of a successful marriage gives me a better understanding of what needs to happen in order for it to be successful.
Now don't get it twisted, im not over here talkin about marriage or anything like that. I just wanted to voice my appreciate for this man, at this particular moment in time. Even on the days we don't agree, I will appreciate and love him just the same.
Now enuff with the mush, I'm still fully focused yall!!! So its time to hit this Natural disasters book so I can ace this test on tuesday.
be blessed yall,
Jay
On another note, me and my sboogie, better known as my love, have climbed over a hill. And let me tell you the grass is greener on the other side. You know when your really down for a long period of time, and one morning you wake up and everything seems to be right. The sun is shining and you feel like a brand new person. well that's kind of how I feel with him and our relationship. Being that it is fairly new, i knew a bump in the road was going to come along sooner than later. And being brutally honest here, I was in no place to let him go, but when things get hard in relationships, I give up because I do not have time to deal with the emotions that come along with it. But before I made a mistake and walked away, I stopped and turned around. And for the 1st time ever, I told myself I would be a damn fool to sit here and lose this man. The battle in my head came because usually its the man walking away, and im saying to him, you're a fool for letting me go. Something in my heart told me that is I left, I would never find anything better. That is a strong thing to feel. But at that moment, i knew i was in love. I became willing to sacrifice my own pride, just to keep that man by my side. I know the decision I made was smart, because unlike my past relationships, he doesnt bring hardships or negativity to my life. He's kinda like that extra kick when I feel like sitting down. What made all of my past relationships so hard was the constant negativity. And in my profession, I need a man who can love me even when I don't have time, even when I have bigger goals. At the end of the day, we do nothing but help better eachother. Now this isnt one sided people, I kick him in the you know what too when I catch him slipping. And that's why we call eachother the perfect team. Think about what a perfect teammate would be, and that is what we are to eachother. And we don't have to be all mushy and lovey dovey for us to know that, it is just something we share and cherish.
I grew up in a household with 2 parents. I watched them fight, I watched them struggle, and I am a 1st hand witness of the happiness they share. Even Stef brought it up when he was helping us move... If my parents don't agree on something, they accept what ever the other one has to say, and accepts them for them. My dad may do something that gets on my moms nerves, but she doesn't let it escalate into a problem, she accepts the fact that my dad is who is and part of loving him is accepting ALL of him. Being able to see the ups and downs of a successful marriage gives me a better understanding of what needs to happen in order for it to be successful.
Now don't get it twisted, im not over here talkin about marriage or anything like that. I just wanted to voice my appreciate for this man, at this particular moment in time. Even on the days we don't agree, I will appreciate and love him just the same.
Now enuff with the mush, I'm still fully focused yall!!! So its time to hit this Natural disasters book so I can ace this test on tuesday.
be blessed yall,
Jay
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
I have done absolutely nothing productive with my morning. I actually had no homework or reading that i could have possibly been doing in anyway, so this is a little relieving(sp).
The news of the week is that San Diego State Women's Basketball was picked to finish 2nd in our conference!!! for those who don't know, that is HUGE! last year we were picked to finish 7th, so i think its fair to say we've turned the corner. Now we have to run full speed ahead and take that #1 spot. You can see the fire in our eyes now. Its definitely our time andwe can't wait totake advantage of it. CoachBurns is definitely doing her job!
Well im off to class people... just wanted to share the big news!!!
tata for now,
Jay
The news of the week is that San Diego State Women's Basketball was picked to finish 2nd in our conference!!! for those who don't know, that is HUGE! last year we were picked to finish 7th, so i think its fair to say we've turned the corner. Now we have to run full speed ahead and take that #1 spot. You can see the fire in our eyes now. Its definitely our time andwe can't wait totake advantage of it. CoachBurns is definitely doing her job!
Well im off to class people... just wanted to share the big news!!!
tata for now,
Jay
Sunday, October 12, 2008
I am supposed to b doing homework!!
But I am not in the right mindset. Gotta wait until I am somewhat motivated to do it (right mom?). Anyway, just a recap of the weekend...
Saturday...
Woke up early and texted my mom if they needed help moving. And for the record, I shouldn't have had to text her, she shouldve told me they needed help! But anyway, they did, she said my daddy was moving all of the big stuff by himself! no no cant have that so I got up, got my Sboogie and headed off to my parents house to help them move. It was a fun yet productive day. If you wanna read about the details, go to wesodontgetit.blogspot.com because i just wrote a whole entry about it, lol.
Anyway saturday night me and my Sboogie went to the football game and the sky show. It was freezing (which is why we ha our hoods on, we werent making a fashion statement or anything) and my school lost. they really need to get it together. But yea, the sky show was really pretty, an we had a lot of fun. We even saw a human cannon ball!!! I was scared for HIS life, he actually shot 75 feet into the air! very impressive and a little dumb if you ask me but whatever, at least hes gettin paid. Then we went home and fell asleep watching the bee movie, which is hilarious!!!
And sunday, well it is my typical sunday... layin around the house allll day until study hall at 5. Which is where i am now attempting to get some work done.
We start official practice next week!!! It is time!!! Highly anticipated, but dreading those 3 hour practices, lord knows they dnt go by fast...
until next time,be blessed yall
Jay
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Should I write? Should I talk?
I have so many emotions and thoughts running through my head. But I know myself, and I’m really not one to hold my tongue. Well, I am when I feel like I need to think about my thoughts more before putting them out there. But in this case, I can’t seem to find the words. So the answer is I will write.
So I just got back from seeing “The Express”. I already knew going into the movie that it was going to be real motivational. I just didn’t know how sad. I’m not gonna spoil the movie, but I seriously cannot understand how people can have so much hatred toward a person strictly because of their skin color. What I also fail to realize, is how little we are taught about the days of segregation. I mean, it wasn’t that long ago, and it still happens today in some places. But in our school systems, we aren’t taught about what our people had to overcome for us to be where we are now. And that is what makes me mad. It makes me want to find out my own history, and not rely on others to teach it to me. That movie wasn’t made about football it was made to show people what he had to overcome to play football. In a scene in the movie, Ernie Davis is watching Jackie Robinson play for the Brooklyn dodgers. Of course back then, it wasn’t an everyday thing you saw a black man playing a professional sport. And Ernie Davis said, “He is saying so much with not saying anything at all”. This had to be one of the best quotes I have ever heard. Jackie Robinson never had to SAY anything to stand up for him, defend him, or all of the other barriers he broke down just by playing. That’s really how I have always played the game of basketball. I speak with my game, no words exchanged. Of course it doesn’t measure up to what Jackie Robinson or Ernie Jackson did, and all that they were playing for, I’m just saying that you can say so much MORE by not saying ANYTHING at all. By leading, by being an example to people, that says so much in itself, and it gains respect.
I love going to the movies. Its simple, fun, and relaxing. And not to mention expensive. They are really trippin chargin somebody 4 dollars for a small bottle of water. It really doesn’t make any sense. On another note, I am enjoying this 3 day weekend. But let me take you back to Thursday for one second. So we had open gym at 2 and workouts at 330. Usually when we know that we have workouts after, we don’t kill ourselves in the gym, just to save our legs for the workout. But on this day, we decided to go super hard, just because practice is coming up and everything, we figured we’d try to warm ourselves up. So we head to workouts, and run a pretty hard run around the neighborhood and up this huge hill, by the end we are all pretty tired. We go in to lift, we do a pretty hard circuit, and usually after that we’re done. Clearly not the case today. Our weight coach tells us to go back outside! We were really confused, he had to be kidding to make us run that thing again. My teammate even said, “are we getting punkd?” Cause simply put, that run isn’t something you do twice in one day. Buttttttt, we all ran it again anyway. After all it is about finishing right, even if we didn’t want to do it. Gotta say I was real proud of my team that day. And real exhausted afterward. Waking up this morning, I could not feel my legs, literally.
So Saturday is going to be a day of fun I guess you can say. Going to my old high school’s bball game, then to SDSUs football game. And ironically, I’ve grown quite fond of doing my homework on the weekend to get ahead during the week. Frankly my weeks are way too long and tiring to try and do so much reading and homework on top of everything else, so I figure I use my days off to do most of it. The beauty of having a syllabus!
I said some time ago that I was going to write a whole section dedicated to the man in my life. But I am kinda thinking I should keep my personal life private. After all this isn’t a fictional blog or anything, lol. But maybe I can do a segment on how I feel about relationships? Over the past few weeks, I was thinking a lot about the energy that it took to maintain a healthy relationship. I was also thinking about the energy that it took to be successful as a student-athlete. Now some people just do what they have to in order to get by, and I have to admit, that’s the easiest way to go with the amount of stress we deal with. And I also have to admit that is what I did my first 2 years of college. And I know from experience that doing that is not fulfilling at all, so I refuse to let myself be average for another year. So far I have done a great job of applying myself, and it is so fulfilling, and ironically, I have MORE energy. By putting everything into working toward what I want to become, there is no possible way I can fail. So I’m not going to lie, a relationship just isn’t a priority right now for me. But that’s where I began to question myself. I forgot for a moment that him being in my life was not an obligation for me, was not a part of my job description, and not what I was working for. He is what I have as a release. He is who is there when I feel overwhelmed, and just want to clear my head. He is my breath of fresh air. And when I figured that out, it made this whole relationship thing seem a whole lot easier. And it takes one hell of a man to be able to understand his role in all of this. To be able to understand what I am doing, and respect it, and stand by me regardless. And for that I do cherish the love that we share.
I was talking to my long time friend about this, and I began to feel a little selfish. But I felt okay with it. Because I didn’t feel selfish in a bad way, but more so that I was supposed to be selfish. I am 20 years old, and who knows where I am going to be in 5 years. But during this time, this is the time where I help determine that. Now is the time that I am supposed to be selfish, I am supposed to be focused on me so that I can get where I want to go. I feel like this time period is most important in my life because it will help determine where I am going to be. I have been molding myself all of my life, and my entire life has helped shape me into the person that I am today. But during college, this is where I feel I am really starting to come into my own. Starting to see my future more clearly. So with that, I am satisfied.
Well it was a long one but I hope it was interesting enough to hold your attention span…
Be blessed ya’ll
Jay
So I just got back from seeing “The Express”. I already knew going into the movie that it was going to be real motivational. I just didn’t know how sad. I’m not gonna spoil the movie, but I seriously cannot understand how people can have so much hatred toward a person strictly because of their skin color. What I also fail to realize, is how little we are taught about the days of segregation. I mean, it wasn’t that long ago, and it still happens today in some places. But in our school systems, we aren’t taught about what our people had to overcome for us to be where we are now. And that is what makes me mad. It makes me want to find out my own history, and not rely on others to teach it to me. That movie wasn’t made about football it was made to show people what he had to overcome to play football. In a scene in the movie, Ernie Davis is watching Jackie Robinson play for the Brooklyn dodgers. Of course back then, it wasn’t an everyday thing you saw a black man playing a professional sport. And Ernie Davis said, “He is saying so much with not saying anything at all”. This had to be one of the best quotes I have ever heard. Jackie Robinson never had to SAY anything to stand up for him, defend him, or all of the other barriers he broke down just by playing. That’s really how I have always played the game of basketball. I speak with my game, no words exchanged. Of course it doesn’t measure up to what Jackie Robinson or Ernie Jackson did, and all that they were playing for, I’m just saying that you can say so much MORE by not saying ANYTHING at all. By leading, by being an example to people, that says so much in itself, and it gains respect.
I love going to the movies. Its simple, fun, and relaxing. And not to mention expensive. They are really trippin chargin somebody 4 dollars for a small bottle of water. It really doesn’t make any sense. On another note, I am enjoying this 3 day weekend. But let me take you back to Thursday for one second. So we had open gym at 2 and workouts at 330. Usually when we know that we have workouts after, we don’t kill ourselves in the gym, just to save our legs for the workout. But on this day, we decided to go super hard, just because practice is coming up and everything, we figured we’d try to warm ourselves up. So we head to workouts, and run a pretty hard run around the neighborhood and up this huge hill, by the end we are all pretty tired. We go in to lift, we do a pretty hard circuit, and usually after that we’re done. Clearly not the case today. Our weight coach tells us to go back outside! We were really confused, he had to be kidding to make us run that thing again. My teammate even said, “are we getting punkd?” Cause simply put, that run isn’t something you do twice in one day. Buttttttt, we all ran it again anyway. After all it is about finishing right, even if we didn’t want to do it. Gotta say I was real proud of my team that day. And real exhausted afterward. Waking up this morning, I could not feel my legs, literally.
So Saturday is going to be a day of fun I guess you can say. Going to my old high school’s bball game, then to SDSUs football game. And ironically, I’ve grown quite fond of doing my homework on the weekend to get ahead during the week. Frankly my weeks are way too long and tiring to try and do so much reading and homework on top of everything else, so I figure I use my days off to do most of it. The beauty of having a syllabus!
I said some time ago that I was going to write a whole section dedicated to the man in my life. But I am kinda thinking I should keep my personal life private. After all this isn’t a fictional blog or anything, lol. But maybe I can do a segment on how I feel about relationships? Over the past few weeks, I was thinking a lot about the energy that it took to maintain a healthy relationship. I was also thinking about the energy that it took to be successful as a student-athlete. Now some people just do what they have to in order to get by, and I have to admit, that’s the easiest way to go with the amount of stress we deal with. And I also have to admit that is what I did my first 2 years of college. And I know from experience that doing that is not fulfilling at all, so I refuse to let myself be average for another year. So far I have done a great job of applying myself, and it is so fulfilling, and ironically, I have MORE energy. By putting everything into working toward what I want to become, there is no possible way I can fail. So I’m not going to lie, a relationship just isn’t a priority right now for me. But that’s where I began to question myself. I forgot for a moment that him being in my life was not an obligation for me, was not a part of my job description, and not what I was working for. He is what I have as a release. He is who is there when I feel overwhelmed, and just want to clear my head. He is my breath of fresh air. And when I figured that out, it made this whole relationship thing seem a whole lot easier. And it takes one hell of a man to be able to understand his role in all of this. To be able to understand what I am doing, and respect it, and stand by me regardless. And for that I do cherish the love that we share.
I was talking to my long time friend about this, and I began to feel a little selfish. But I felt okay with it. Because I didn’t feel selfish in a bad way, but more so that I was supposed to be selfish. I am 20 years old, and who knows where I am going to be in 5 years. But during this time, this is the time where I help determine that. Now is the time that I am supposed to be selfish, I am supposed to be focused on me so that I can get where I want to go. I feel like this time period is most important in my life because it will help determine where I am going to be. I have been molding myself all of my life, and my entire life has helped shape me into the person that I am today. But during college, this is where I feel I am really starting to come into my own. Starting to see my future more clearly. So with that, I am satisfied.
Well it was a long one but I hope it was interesting enough to hold your attention span…
Be blessed ya’ll
Jay
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
So I have a FEW minutes
So this is from the clinic we did today! LOL, had to come back and add it. These women were impressive
Wow, although my life is crazy and time consuming, I wouldn't change it for the world. Sometimes when I am at home and doing nothing, I feel out of place. Lord knows that I am meant to be out here getting work done, and striving to be the best at whatever I do.
Okay so just a brief update, School is going really well. I am devoting myself to putting more hours into studying, and less hours into television. Even on those days where I want to be extremely lazy, and just lay on my couch, I know that I will have less stress on my shoulders if I get my work done in, let's just say an ordally fashion. As for hoop, practice starts next thursday, and believe me, I have been waiting for this moment. Some people would dread the idea of practice, but to me practice means season. And this season, I get to play! I havent played since march of 2007, and that can hardly qualify as playing in my eyes. So I'm ready. Right now we have individuals, so our coach is allowed to have everyone for 2 hours a week. Which is NOTHING compared to practice when they're allowed to have us for like 40! no lie. Gotta love it though. So I'm loving the feeling of getting to play with my teammates and not against them. Redshirt year, I had to act as the other team, so over that. I'm ready to resperesent my school.
Okay so my schedule for the day
945-1045 study hall
I swear work is piling on me, but its all good. At least I have things to do in study hall.
11-1150 Class
OMG my teacher needs to talk louder. She bugs. But she's nice so whatever. We had to turn in our first assignment last friday. She was talking about it like it was some huge thing, and it was clearly a 2 page paper. Don't get me wrong, I'll write 2 page papers all day. But that just didnt seem like it should be a midterm. I guess that 1 year at UCLA was a lot more beneficial than I thought. The shortest paper I had to write was 5 pages. So I am not complaining. What was funny to me though was that everyone in my class was. Like omg school is so hard. Like you've got to be kidding me. Whatever turned it in, lets hope all this talk doesnt get me a B! =/ (undecided face)
1 - 2 Individuals
Guards go for half an hour than the post comes on with us, and we run POWER. yeap our motion offense. It feels good being a 2nd year, because I really don't have to learn as much, now its my turn to lead the kiddies. lol.
330 Meeting
So me, along with 2 other of my teammates were chosen to represent our team on the SAAC committee. (Student Associated Athletic Committee). I think Ive talked about this before. But yea, I couldn't even really tell you what this meeting was about. I know I'll be there to listen and give input.
5 - 7 Bball Clinic for the elderly women's league
I am almost positive they have a better name than that. But basically we'll be putting on like a camp type deal for women that range from ages 55 - 84!!! They be hoopin though...talk about ballin for a long time, I dont know what we're supposed to show them! Should be fun
7-940 Class
This teacher has us read so much! Right now we are studying violence against women. Sad topic but definitely something we should all want to know more about.
on that note, im off to class...its gonna be a long day.
oh yeah, cant forget this..
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to my love. We've been at it for 2 months (technically), and still going strong. I've got a good man on my side. Baby, you got a whole entry comin your way, I just need a little more time. Loves you
be blessed yall
Jay
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
good lordy
I AM BUSY... there is really no other way to put it people. School is getting kinda heavy with papers and tests, and a gabillion pages of reading to do. But I am hanging in there. I'm mad because I havent had time to update this thing with my wonderful busy schedule. So sometime this weekend that will happen. Moral of this story is, without my family, without my man, and without my teammates, coaches, and counselors, I wouldn't be able to do what I'm doin. Stay tuned yall, the best is yet to come.
1st game: November 10! mark ur calenders!
Be blessed yall
Jay
1st game: November 10! mark ur calenders!
Be blessed yall
Jay
Monday, October 6, 2008
Been a few days
So clearly I've been away for a while, I had to take some time to catch myself up in school. Not that I fell behind, but my load was getting extremely heavy. Well, it is heavy, but I figured I'd take a few minutes to catch everyone up. This weekend was very relaxing yet productive. I dedicated the entire weekend to homework, literally. I left the house to run some errands, and go out to eat. Other than that, not much else went on.
As for basketball, we have our first official practice next thursday. I can't believe my redshirt year is over. It went by extremely fast, and as it much as people may percieve it as being hell, it wasn't. Workouts are beginning to center around practice and games. You know, speed as opposed to strength. The summer is used to get stronger, and we accomplished that. Now its time to get in game shape. Gotta get this shooting arm warmed back up. My team is doing great. My coach assigned a new captain this year, and I myself can't be happier. I'm confident that Lil San will lead our team in a great way. She is an excellent leader, not to mention funny as hell. She makes every workout seem fun.
I have a lot more to say but I gotta wait until I have a little more time. Be blessed yall
jay
As for basketball, we have our first official practice next thursday. I can't believe my redshirt year is over. It went by extremely fast, and as it much as people may percieve it as being hell, it wasn't. Workouts are beginning to center around practice and games. You know, speed as opposed to strength. The summer is used to get stronger, and we accomplished that. Now its time to get in game shape. Gotta get this shooting arm warmed back up. My team is doing great. My coach assigned a new captain this year, and I myself can't be happier. I'm confident that Lil San will lead our team in a great way. She is an excellent leader, not to mention funny as hell. She makes every workout seem fun.
I have a lot more to say but I gotta wait until I have a little more time. Be blessed yall
jay
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