October 15th

I could NOT sleep last night!! I think I woke up around 3 from a bad dream, and didnt fall back asleep until 530. I hate when that heppens. Anyway, we had like a pre-1st practice today, where we kind of introduced what real practice is going to be like to the freshies. We were going a little bit fast though, it would suck to be a freshman but they got things down fairly easy, we've all been freshman once. So we went today for 2 hours, and official practice starts tomorrow, 3hours from 5 to 8 pm. We have been anticipating this for a long time. After running on the turf since april, I think we are all really hungry to start the actual season. So that's that. We'll see what tomorrow brings. Especially considering that my body is ALREADY sore!! O goodness, it'll pass.

On another note, me and my sboogie, better known as my love, have climbed over a hill. And let me tell you the grass is greener on the other side. You know when your really down for a long period of time, and one morning you wake up and everything seems to be right. The sun is shining and you feel like a brand new person. well that's kind of how I feel with him and our relationship. Being that it is fairly new, i knew a bump in the road was going to come along sooner than later. And being brutally honest here, I was in no place to let him go, but when things get hard in relationships, I give up because I do not have time to deal with the emotions that come along with it. But before I made a mistake and walked away, I stopped and turned around. And for the 1st time ever, I told myself I would be a damn fool to sit here and lose this man. The battle in my head came because usually its the man walking away, and im saying to him, you're a fool for letting me go. Something in my heart told me that is I left, I would never find anything better. That is a strong thing to feel. But at that moment, i knew i was in love. I became willing to sacrifice my own pride, just to keep that man by my side. I know the decision I made was smart, because unlike my past relationships, he doesnt bring hardships or negativity to my life. He's kinda like that extra kick when I feel like sitting down. What made all of my past relationships so hard was the constant negativity. And in my profession, I need a man who can love me even when I don't have time, even when I have bigger goals. At the end of the day, we do nothing but help better eachother. Now this isnt one sided people, I kick him in the you know what too when I catch him slipping. And that's why we call eachother the perfect team. Think about what a perfect teammate would be, and that is what we are to eachother. And we don't have to be all mushy and lovey dovey for us to know that, it is just something we share and cherish.

I grew up in a household with 2 parents. I watched them fight, I watched them struggle, and I am a 1st hand witness of the happiness they share. Even Stef brought it up when he was helping us move... If my parents don't agree on something, they accept what ever the other one has to say, and accepts them for them. My dad may do something that gets on my moms nerves, but she doesn't let it escalate into a problem, she accepts the fact that my dad is who is and part of loving him is accepting ALL of him. Being able to see the ups and downs of a successful marriage gives me a better understanding of what needs to happen in order for it to be successful.

Now don't get it twisted, im not over here talkin about marriage or anything like that. I just wanted to voice my appreciate for this man, at this particular moment in time. Even on the days we don't agree, I will appreciate and love him just the same.

Now enuff with the mush, I'm still fully focused yall!!! So its time to hit this Natural disasters book so I can ace this test on tuesday.

be blessed yall,
Jay