YEAP THATS WHAT IT SAYS... We ended the season undefeated at home. Bitter sweet for many of us... Jaylay and san, our seniors... Im glad we could do it for yall. However, because we are hosting the 1st 2 rounds of the NCAA tourney, today was most likely not our last home game! exciting I know... so people better be there.
Anyway, as far as school. lets just say i havent been to school in like 3 weeks because of our travel schedule. Annnnd, will miss the next 2 weeks because its tourney time. SMH, this is the life though. Gotta keep my head above water until im able to fully focus on school and maintain this 3.o. Its all good.
well, im off to partay with the teammies. Senior day doesnt end after the game!
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Time to vent...
Okay, Business 1st I guess... We beat air force. And Colorado Springs is officially the worst place ever. I really could not breathe. I had a headache the entire time, my eyes were burning, just wasn't an exciting trip.
So me and my sister went to see "He's just not that into you", and I gotta say it was a well put together movie. As my sister would say, it had a really good moral. In actuality, I cried 4 times I think. Not because the movie was that sad, but because it made me think about real life. My love life is what makes me cry, not my life as a whole (just to clear that up). So anyway, the movie basically went through the things to know when a guy just isn't into you. I found it to be common sense, personally. For example, rule #1 was... When he doesn't call he's just not that into you. Well duh. It kills me when people think a person is going to call after a week and a half of NOT calling. This does not only apply to men. For example, in a recent interaction with a man I was NOT even remotely interested in, I insisted that I take his number, simply because I did not want him to call me. I believe 3 weeks passed, of me not calling, and he told his friend to remind me to hit him up. UMMMM Im so sorry dude, but 3 weeks. Probably not gonna call. This is where the movie made a valid point, if a man is interested, you will know. Meaning, he will call, he will want to spend time with you, and so forth. Another duh should be implimented here. I don't want to go through the entire movie, but be warned... it is a serious chick flick!
So recently I've been feeling ways that I have never felt before. You see, there's this guy, and he does intrigue me. I learned that life is all about taking risks. With a guard up, I felt myself beginning to live in fear. I used to think it was bad to open up to people, especially men that interested me even slightly. I felt like I was giving them access to me. I realized that is not bad at all. Even if someone has access to me, it does not mean I am losing anything. I believe that who I am is a blessing, and if a person can take a piece of it, it will only be beneficial to them.
The past few days have been just, one of those days. I can't wait to get into an empty room, so I can let my tears fall. Its hard to put into words how I am feeling. Going without speaking to a special someone makes me feel like someone died. That empty feeling inside. Like they are so close but yet so far. Now I would say that I never let anyone affect me in this way, but this is different. Right now I don't feel like I have control, of anything. I feel like without this person, I want to shut down. Now knowing that shutting down is not an option, it just hurts. It hurts to feel that I don't have this person. I know that everything happens for a reason, at the perfect time. As much as I want to say but, there is no but. I know that things will work the way that they are supposed to. Even if its not the way I thought, it'll be for the best. Won't it???
Life leads so many unanswered questions, but its not my job to answer them. The answers will come in due time. I guess I used to think I had all the answers, this must be a feeling I've never had before.
Be blessed yall
Jay
So me and my sister went to see "He's just not that into you", and I gotta say it was a well put together movie. As my sister would say, it had a really good moral. In actuality, I cried 4 times I think. Not because the movie was that sad, but because it made me think about real life. My love life is what makes me cry, not my life as a whole (just to clear that up). So anyway, the movie basically went through the things to know when a guy just isn't into you. I found it to be common sense, personally. For example, rule #1 was... When he doesn't call he's just not that into you. Well duh. It kills me when people think a person is going to call after a week and a half of NOT calling. This does not only apply to men. For example, in a recent interaction with a man I was NOT even remotely interested in, I insisted that I take his number, simply because I did not want him to call me. I believe 3 weeks passed, of me not calling, and he told his friend to remind me to hit him up. UMMMM Im so sorry dude, but 3 weeks. Probably not gonna call. This is where the movie made a valid point, if a man is interested, you will know. Meaning, he will call, he will want to spend time with you, and so forth. Another duh should be implimented here. I don't want to go through the entire movie, but be warned... it is a serious chick flick!
So recently I've been feeling ways that I have never felt before. You see, there's this guy, and he does intrigue me. I learned that life is all about taking risks. With a guard up, I felt myself beginning to live in fear. I used to think it was bad to open up to people, especially men that interested me even slightly. I felt like I was giving them access to me. I realized that is not bad at all. Even if someone has access to me, it does not mean I am losing anything. I believe that who I am is a blessing, and if a person can take a piece of it, it will only be beneficial to them.
The past few days have been just, one of those days. I can't wait to get into an empty room, so I can let my tears fall. Its hard to put into words how I am feeling. Going without speaking to a special someone makes me feel like someone died. That empty feeling inside. Like they are so close but yet so far. Now I would say that I never let anyone affect me in this way, but this is different. Right now I don't feel like I have control, of anything. I feel like without this person, I want to shut down. Now knowing that shutting down is not an option, it just hurts. It hurts to feel that I don't have this person. I know that everything happens for a reason, at the perfect time. As much as I want to say but, there is no but. I know that things will work the way that they are supposed to. Even if its not the way I thought, it'll be for the best. Won't it???
Life leads so many unanswered questions, but its not my job to answer them. The answers will come in due time. I guess I used to think I had all the answers, this must be a feeling I've never had before.
Be blessed yall
Jay
Thursday, February 5, 2009
AND WE'RE OFF..........
hittin the road once again. Its time for the 2nd round of conference! ALREADY! Crazy how time passes by isn't it. Well, we are off to colorado in th morning to keep our 2nd place standing in the mountain west conference alive. We are currently 15-5 and even though it gets crazy sometimes, we are loving every single second of it. Yesterday in the lockerroom we were talking about the show "For the Love of Ray-j", and how ridiculous it is. Reality shows have just hit an all time low. Well some of them anyway, this one is laughable. So you know how on those type of shows they give nicknames to the people. (for example: New york and delicious) So I asked my teammates what their names would be. This opened up one hell of a lockerroom conversation! So I mind as well share the names we came up with....
In Numerical Order lol...
(2) CoCo Davis: SPLIT - she is the epitamy of a gemini, split personalities to the fullest!!! And she knows it too. She could be an angel child one second, the meanest realest person the next, and a cry baby the second after that. Lover her tho! She was happy we ave her that name, lol.
(3) Q Davis: EMO - need i say more, this girl can be emotional on and off the court. Not in a bad way at all. But whatever she is feeling, her emotions show it.
(4) Kim Spinardi: SUCCESSOR aka sessor! - She is gonna be rich and successful. She's all about business, and always has the answers to everything, literally!
(5) Jene Morris: CASPER - She kind of does her own thing. She's not anti-social or anything but she does what she does. We call her casper for 2 reasons. When she's on the floor, she's so quick its like you dont even see her. And when we have team gatherings or somethin, she's usually not there. She does her own thang.
(15) Lindsay Leo: RUNWAY - This girl lives her life like she's constantly on he runway. She walks like a model all the time. Sheis always the one dressing up, doing her hair, putting makeup on, the whole 9.
(20) Adrienne Vita: SILENT ASSASSIN - Because she never talks!!!! lol
(21) Me!!: REV RUN aka REV - My team came up with this for me because I always stick to my morals. I'm the one that doesn't drink, none of that. But like rev run, I still have fun. I like my name. :)
(22) Gabby Clark: SNEAKS - One would assume she's shy, but with us, she has really come out of her box. Se's quiet, but her personality will sneak up on you.
(23) Lasandra Dixon: CHAOS - Simply put, she will walk into any room and cause chaos, in a good way though. She's the jokster, outta control one on the team. The one who is always dancing, crackin jokes, just being random...or chaotic! lol
(24) Jennifer Layton-Bailes: MOM DUKES - She's the mommy on the team, and she does a great job of raising her son. Mom dukes is a daygo term used to say mom. lol, nothing tricky.
(32) Paris Johnson: COCKY - She is unconsciously cocky. Not obnoxious, but thatcocky swag to her. Like, "anything you can do I can do better" type of attitude.
(34) Allison Duffy: TROUBLE - Cause she's always in some type of trouble! LoL
(40) Candace Chambers: GOOF TROOP - This girl is so goofy, no other name would fit for her. She is like a really big kid. Always laughing,making random statements,just goofy.
(55) Kalena Tutt: SENSI - Because she is sensitive! Lol. She's a sweetheart until you cross her, then you'll see her sensitivity.
Well, there's the rundown of my team. We could definitely have our own reality show, and a good one at that! We were talking about getting a confession room because as much as we are around eachother, sometimes we need to get some things off of our chest about one another. We are a family, and I mean that literally. We might butt heads but at the end of the day, its all love.
Well I'm off to attempt some homework! School mode for a few more months!
Be blessed yall
Jay
In Numerical Order lol...
(2) CoCo Davis: SPLIT - she is the epitamy of a gemini, split personalities to the fullest!!! And she knows it too. She could be an angel child one second, the meanest realest person the next, and a cry baby the second after that. Lover her tho! She was happy we ave her that name, lol.
(3) Q Davis: EMO - need i say more, this girl can be emotional on and off the court. Not in a bad way at all. But whatever she is feeling, her emotions show it.
(4) Kim Spinardi: SUCCESSOR aka sessor! - She is gonna be rich and successful. She's all about business, and always has the answers to everything, literally!
(5) Jene Morris: CASPER - She kind of does her own thing. She's not anti-social or anything but she does what she does. We call her casper for 2 reasons. When she's on the floor, she's so quick its like you dont even see her. And when we have team gatherings or somethin, she's usually not there. She does her own thang.
(15) Lindsay Leo: RUNWAY - This girl lives her life like she's constantly on he runway. She walks like a model all the time. Sheis always the one dressing up, doing her hair, putting makeup on, the whole 9.
(20) Adrienne Vita: SILENT ASSASSIN - Because she never talks!!!! lol
(21) Me!!: REV RUN aka REV - My team came up with this for me because I always stick to my morals. I'm the one that doesn't drink, none of that. But like rev run, I still have fun. I like my name. :)
(22) Gabby Clark: SNEAKS - One would assume she's shy, but with us, she has really come out of her box. Se's quiet, but her personality will sneak up on you.
(23) Lasandra Dixon: CHAOS - Simply put, she will walk into any room and cause chaos, in a good way though. She's the jokster, outta control one on the team. The one who is always dancing, crackin jokes, just being random...or chaotic! lol
(24) Jennifer Layton-Bailes: MOM DUKES - She's the mommy on the team, and she does a great job of raising her son. Mom dukes is a daygo term used to say mom. lol, nothing tricky.
(32) Paris Johnson: COCKY - She is unconsciously cocky. Not obnoxious, but thatcocky swag to her. Like, "anything you can do I can do better" type of attitude.
(34) Allison Duffy: TROUBLE - Cause she's always in some type of trouble! LoL
(40) Candace Chambers: GOOF TROOP - This girl is so goofy, no other name would fit for her. She is like a really big kid. Always laughing,making random statements,just goofy.
(55) Kalena Tutt: SENSI - Because she is sensitive! Lol. She's a sweetheart until you cross her, then you'll see her sensitivity.
Well, there's the rundown of my team. We could definitely have our own reality show, and a good one at that! We were talking about getting a confession room because as much as we are around eachother, sometimes we need to get some things off of our chest about one another. We are a family, and I mean that literally. We might butt heads but at the end of the day, its all love.
Well I'm off to attempt some homework! School mode for a few more months!
Be blessed yall
Jay
Monday, February 2, 2009
The UPS and DOWNS of living alone...
SO recently I've been feeling extremely solo. Not likeI havent always been that way, but I think its starting to become emphasized in this empty condo. Dont get me wrong, I love it! And wouldn't want a roommate ifyou paid me, but it does get lonely around here. Take tonight for example, after getting out of class at 940pm! UGH! I made myself go get groceries. I post pone the process of getting groceries because it is a hastle (sp). 1st off because I'm never here long enough to cook, and if I am, I usually don't have the energy. 2nd because carrying all those bags in is annoying!!!! Seriously. And I have to bag all that food by myself! And Im forced to hurry up because the person behind me, their food is attacking mine from behind, awaiting baggage!!! LoL. Just annoying but I got it done.
There are some perks to living alone. Of course, walkng around nakie! my fav! Going into whatever room I want to go into without worrying if someone else is in there watching tv or whatever. Having my own space is lovely. Another down... I HAVE 2 clean everything! LoL. Sometimes you just dont want to do dishes, but theres no one else here to share turns with :(. Such is life. Another down, there is no one to talk to! Just feels lonely at times. Oh yea, not to mention being lowkey afraid to sleep at night. Its lonely sometimes man. But like I said, wouldn't change it for the world. I noticed that i do most, if not ALL things by myself. I really don't go out, I would rather sleep... and the only person I wud really go out with is Kaitlin and she doesnt live here.... sooooooooooo, it is what it is. I'm 20 years old, single, and extremely inependent. (Sounds like an eharmony reseme) ha...NOT!
Love is definitely NOT in the air :( unfortunately. No rush, but it does provide an empty feeling, AT TIMES. I don't even like talking about it anymore, since its so nonexistant. I annoy myself!
aight folks i am out of here!
Jay
There are some perks to living alone. Of course, walkng around nakie! my fav! Going into whatever room I want to go into without worrying if someone else is in there watching tv or whatever. Having my own space is lovely. Another down... I HAVE 2 clean everything! LoL. Sometimes you just dont want to do dishes, but theres no one else here to share turns with :(. Such is life. Another down, there is no one to talk to! Just feels lonely at times. Oh yea, not to mention being lowkey afraid to sleep at night. Its lonely sometimes man. But like I said, wouldn't change it for the world. I noticed that i do most, if not ALL things by myself. I really don't go out, I would rather sleep... and the only person I wud really go out with is Kaitlin and she doesnt live here.... sooooooooooo, it is what it is. I'm 20 years old, single, and extremely inependent. (Sounds like an eharmony reseme) ha...NOT!
Love is definitely NOT in the air :( unfortunately. No rush, but it does provide an empty feeling, AT TIMES. I don't even like talking about it anymore, since its so nonexistant. I annoy myself!
aight folks i am out of here!
Jay
Sunday, February 1, 2009
25 random things about me
1. I go back and forth about wanting a breast reduction. It goes away whenever I get a chance 2 show some cleavage lol.
2. I use 3 different soaps when I shower, and lotion myself twice with different kinds.
3. My eyes get watery whenever I talk about my parents, or my little brother.
4. I recently started flossing! 5. I want a relationship/marriage that mirrors my big brother's marriage.
6. I try my HARDEST not to talk about people. It kinda goes out the window when people piss me off.
7. I have had a recent urge to start a family. (No worries peeps, not happening anytime soon).
8. My personality is almost a spitting image of my mothers'.
9. When I'm at the freethrow line, I try to think of something I shouldn't be thinking about, just to test my concentration. Then I say my brother's name, "Cameron".
10. I'm disturbed by people's lack of ability to communicate face to face nowadays, or even ear to ear. Aim kills me, but it works for some people. (Especially if I don't feel like verbally talking to you. Lol.)
11. I feel like I'm missing my little brothers and sisters grow up.
12. I have to fall asleep with the tv on when I'm at home. 98% of the time "FRIENDS" is on. Get a little scared living alone.
13. I HATE doing dishes!
14. I learn so much from the few friends I have.
15. I think I've broken just as many hearts as much as mine has FELT broken.
16. I LOVE chick flicks. Even the corniest ones. They keep my attention for some reason.
17. I need to eat healthier. I'm beginning to hate fast food. But I really can't cook. :(
18. Recently I have felt extremely lonely.
19. Laughing is my release. If I'm sad about something, I'll cry eventually. But in the heat of it all, ill try to laugh at myself for crying.
20. Only 2 men I trust are Rico and My daddy. (Stepdad, which I really shouldnt even have to say.)
21. I constantly think about what my life would have been like if I went to St. Johns.
22. I am a bigger Beyonce fan than I ever thought I would be. She is so flyy to me, and her music is unique. You always know its hers when you hear it.
23. I idolize my little sister
24. I am a Gameshow/boardgame fanatic! To say the least.
25. I long to love (someone other than my family) unconditionally.
As a student athlete, there are those moments when you just don't want to talk about being a student or an athlete, and right now is one of those moments. The lifestyle can become so demanding that we need times like these to step away from them, just to maintain our sanity.
Last night my little sister and I went to see the movie Notorious (FINALLY). We enjoyed it. I think that will be our once a week outting, at least when something good is out. We have become extremely close. I love that girl. She is one of my bestfriends. Earlier today, when we WERE NOT watching the super bowl, we had a pretty deep (not to mention entertaining) conversation. It was the epitamy of "girl talk". We have made plans to open up our own photography studio in New York City. We also plan to attend college/gradschool in NYC as well. I will be graduating from college the same year she graduates from high school. God works in mysterious ways. It will happen the way we want it to. My sister has to be the most unique, most all around person I know. I idolize her, to say the least. She actually helped me put some things in perspective. Sometimes we need someone's eyes outside of our own to tell us what we may not be able to see ourselves, isnt that right momma ;). Love you devo, i am expecting a text on tuesday lol. Just let things happen :).
Be blessed yall,
Jay
1. I go back and forth about wanting a breast reduction. It goes away whenever I get a chance 2 show some cleavage lol.
2. I use 3 different soaps when I shower, and lotion myself twice with different kinds.
3. My eyes get watery whenever I talk about my parents, or my little brother.
4. I recently started flossing! 5. I want a relationship/marriage that mirrors my big brother's marriage.
6. I try my HARDEST not to talk about people. It kinda goes out the window when people piss me off.
7. I have had a recent urge to start a family. (No worries peeps, not happening anytime soon).
8. My personality is almost a spitting image of my mothers'.
9. When I'm at the freethrow line, I try to think of something I shouldn't be thinking about, just to test my concentration. Then I say my brother's name, "Cameron".
10. I'm disturbed by people's lack of ability to communicate face to face nowadays, or even ear to ear. Aim kills me, but it works for some people. (Especially if I don't feel like verbally talking to you. Lol.)
11. I feel like I'm missing my little brothers and sisters grow up.
12. I have to fall asleep with the tv on when I'm at home. 98% of the time "FRIENDS" is on. Get a little scared living alone.
13. I HATE doing dishes!
14. I learn so much from the few friends I have.
15. I think I've broken just as many hearts as much as mine has FELT broken.
16. I LOVE chick flicks. Even the corniest ones. They keep my attention for some reason.
17. I need to eat healthier. I'm beginning to hate fast food. But I really can't cook. :(
18. Recently I have felt extremely lonely.
19. Laughing is my release. If I'm sad about something, I'll cry eventually. But in the heat of it all, ill try to laugh at myself for crying.
20. Only 2 men I trust are Rico and My daddy. (Stepdad, which I really shouldnt even have to say.)
21. I constantly think about what my life would have been like if I went to St. Johns.
22. I am a bigger Beyonce fan than I ever thought I would be. She is so flyy to me, and her music is unique. You always know its hers when you hear it.
23. I idolize my little sister
24. I am a Gameshow/boardgame fanatic! To say the least.
25. I long to love (someone other than my family) unconditionally.
As a student athlete, there are those moments when you just don't want to talk about being a student or an athlete, and right now is one of those moments. The lifestyle can become so demanding that we need times like these to step away from them, just to maintain our sanity.
Last night my little sister and I went to see the movie Notorious (FINALLY). We enjoyed it. I think that will be our once a week outting, at least when something good is out. We have become extremely close. I love that girl. She is one of my bestfriends. Earlier today, when we WERE NOT watching the super bowl, we had a pretty deep (not to mention entertaining) conversation. It was the epitamy of "girl talk". We have made plans to open up our own photography studio in New York City. We also plan to attend college/gradschool in NYC as well. I will be graduating from college the same year she graduates from high school. God works in mysterious ways. It will happen the way we want it to. My sister has to be the most unique, most all around person I know. I idolize her, to say the least. She actually helped me put some things in perspective. Sometimes we need someone's eyes outside of our own to tell us what we may not be able to see ourselves, isnt that right momma ;). Love you devo, i am expecting a text on tuesday lol. Just let things happen :).
Be blessed yall,
Jay
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